Another day another discouraging hint of yet another disillusion so slowly begins to take over my emotional being. Can not say I am at all shocked I knew deep within me there will not be another person that I could relate to and confide in or see the love for me within their spirit not just a wanting love not just a love to tussle my hair or a love to ruffle my feathers not a love just around to sugar coat this dirty existense into a ride of fun and unaldultered bliss how come I do do not enchant or emtice another to want to be a part of me and all I that I feel see and am… I find myself trying to be a part of peoples lives but they dismiss me like yesterdays rotten moldy bread only to offer my loaf when it is all fresh and ready to be consumed with its full of life and softness just aiming to please instead they keep their head turned until I am all rotten to the core green with anger and ready to inject a poison so deep into them that they do not want to eat me because I am lethal help me to see life for what it is and let go of this silly illuysion of being in love because its over it’s a dream I can not dream anymore